In 2014 after a one years worth of testing, and eighteen months of therapy sessions six times a month, I was diagnosed with Asperger’s, Sensory Processing Disorder, emotional dysregulation, PTSD, CPTSD and several other unpronounceable things along with a stupid high IQ. This was another thing I simply did not want to hear. Because this meant all the crap I did in life, all the crap I endured as a stupid emotionally dysregulated child and even teen did not have to happen if my parents would have had me diagnosed. And yes even then diagnosis was available. It was later I realized getting diagnosed back then would have probably got me institutionalized. But for almost a year it haunted me and there was one therapy session after another on this subject for months. Then the worst thing possible happened, the nightmare of thousands of people in this country every year.